As noted on my “So Who is Jess?” I am a Sociology major nearing the end of my degree program, I specifically study Sex and Gender (Anyone care to guess why?). However in all of my discussions, papers and projects where I have worked on women’s issue, BDSM, gendered media and intersexed people I have never breached the topic of Crossdressing or Transvestitism in depth until class today. That was a scary experience to say the least trying to ensure I said they instead of we and wondering if I was exposing myself too much. I have taken classes with all of these people and the prof before so they know that I have a particular interest in gender as a sociological concept and I had done legitimate research on the topic so I was citing academic sources but I felt like everything was closing in on me. Though I have never held back on topics such as feminist theory or Drag so this was likely not a surprise to them but it still felt like everyone was looking through my jeans and could see my panties (even though today it was boxers). Throughout my academic career I have avoided the very subject that motivated me to go back to university for one reason, fear of exposing too much. Now that I am coming into the twilight of my undergrad I decided now is the time to really work with this part of me academically and I am beginning to question this course of action. Can I really bring myself to write a paper on something that is such a large part of my life? Can I afford not to?